Heavy is the Crown... it Really Does Feel Heavy Sometimes

I was no one 

I became someone

I chased after everyone

Did I gain the universe only to lose God?

I never wanted to look back or look in a mirror

The purity of a child

The bravest of hearts

The wounded souls

The rejects or outcasts 

Jesus loves all, but humanity is still broken

There's only one Creator

There's only one Father

There's only one Spirit

There's only one cross

There's no room for judgment, but all I see is what's broken

My trauma and my scars tell me this:

Make no mistake

Make no errors in judgment

Make no excuses for what's wrong and do what's right

Make only good choices, for it'll strengthen your character

Face your imperfections, then hear Him say that you're enough 

I can't take away your pain

I can't make you feel happy again

I can't be who you want me to be

I can't lay my life down again and expect different results

Just let me be, and I'll learn to live with your disappointment

Sisters choose to love, no matter what happens in life

Friends choose us for companionship, but they serve different purposes

Our parents choose to give us the world so that we can choose better

I chose to believe in Jesus because I'm willing to admit that I need a savior

I chose to walk with my demons because I'm used to dealing with them alone

We chose each other until the end, but you keep saying that my choices in love are unfair

I'm not sorry for being me, flaws, faults and all

I'm not going to regret loving, even if it caused me to suffer in silence

I'm not going to judge you ever, even if you still think you're not enough

I'm not going to make you love me, but I know that Jesus can heal us in time

Your heart is too pure, but mine still feels shattered. How is it fair for me to receive less?

I don't want your sympathy. I just want to feel understood, and to let that be enough.